I can buy my own specialty coffee at a cute cafe across my apartment that I pay for. My friends are wary of my dating life. I don't feel the rush to be involved with anyone nor the anxiety to settle with someone. They say I'm in my mid-twenties and that I should go out and meet a lot of people, or even date some. And yes, I do. I try to mingle and have quick dinner dates just to appease them. But the truth is I am happy and contented with how my life is now. I am not in a hurry to be a part of someone's life just yet. Because right now, what matters for me is just me. I'm having fun with my career. I like how things are turning for the better for me. I'm slowly gaining the recognition that I've always craved for. And waking up everyday is easier when I know that I'll be doing something extraordinary and challenging. It makes me discover and realize that I can actually do things that I thought I couldn't before. I have full independence in life. Coming from college when I was completely dependent to my parents for everything; now, I have all that I need to have a happy life. I can buy my own specialty coffee at a cute cafe across my apartment that I pay for. I owe nothing to anyone. And I don't answer to anyone. Only to myself. I want to enjoy this time of my life, when I have no one else to think of and take care of. Just me. It may sound selfish but I know I need this phase. And when I'm ready, when I truly know who I am and what I'm capable of, perhaps, I'll meet him. I can spend all the time in the world with my friends. Be it catching up over brunch at our favorite Tita place or even going to a spontaneous road trip to La Union on a Friday night. Enjoying, gaining new experiences, traveling and having the time of my life with my closest friends are exactly what I need to discover who I really am, as a friend and as a person. And above all, I have enough time to explore my passions in life. I am still young, with a lot of potential. I have a career that I love but I also have my own personal hobbies and interest that I treasure and want to share to the world. I love to paint. I love to write. I love to play futsal. And I know I can improve them all the more. This is what's taking up my free time on Tuesday nights when I become too overwhelmed with the first half of the working week. I tend to just lock myself in my room to paint. Or on a slow Sunday morning sipping coffee, I would write essays to encourage young girls like me. With these, I get to know myself while spending time with myself. It's peaceful. Really. To know myself really well. And when I'm ready, when I truly know who I am and what I'm capable of, perhaps, I'll meet him. It may be in my favorite cafe, or in a city library while I'm too busy reading a book. It may be in a restaurant that I frequent or while I'm traveling. But I'm sure it will be unexpectedly romantic. And this time, I know I can love someone else freely and wholeheartedly, because I know how to love myself. Yes, I'm currently single and happy. Not really looking for anything. But I know someday, I'll be looking at him, thinking that I didn't waste time just waiting. Because I was happy while doing so. Because I was happy getting to know me.
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